December 2009
26 posts
i really, really, really truly think that 2010...
something tells me things will get better
i’ve learned something about myself, and it’s that i enjoy my alone time as much as i do my company. i’ve always been a person who thinks far too much about things, even overcomplicate the simplest things—thoughts and ideas become so far-fetched, even more intangible. and it’s times when i’m alone it seems that i either gravitate towards getting caught up in it...
the days seem to fly by so quickly for winter—nothing lingers long enough, it’s always a flurry of movement, transitions, day in to day out. the days aren’t as languid and slow as i tend to remember, but every infintesimal moment seems accentuated, alight… alive. i can’t complain because i am enjoying this company after feeling anything other than myself for so long....
in my good times...
needless to say, it has been yet another incredible holiday. this is why i enjoy this season the most—feelings in accordance, excitement plenty, love manifested. as if nothing could be any more conspicuous in the laughter and ridiculous faces that only we dare showcase in each other’s company, the bonding that seems unparalleled (“well, we might as well get married now, huh...
lately,
i’ve been in the mood for sappy romance films, especially those pertaining to christmas time and all that wonderfulness. what can i say, i’ve always been (stupidly) and hopelessly romantic at heart, let me have my lame absurd moments all right
especially if they’re john cusack and jude law filled, oh boy
i want to write but not as much as i’d like to get better....
they made a statue of us
i don’t know what it is, but watching (500) days of summer again seemed to rekindle my own ideals in regards to love/all that sentimental crap. i suppose it’s just the reality that it actually portrays; the faults and mechanisms of love that never come together in unison. either way, i am, by all means, something of a tom hansen in that i am quixotic and impractical, someone who holds...
i love watching sunrises as much as i do sunsets
i’m stupidly enamored with life :)
i’ve always found it simultaneously interesting and incredible how lucid a song or band can resonate in accordance to a certain location or even instance. i’ve always found it natural to associate music with my wanderings and my moments, a kind of connection i kind of habitually make, and it kind of brings to life that moment all over again. i don’t know, sitting here with my...
i have always imagined it in my head, fabricated scenarios of course, perhaps even of fabricated people, but nothing really comes close to rivaling to the reality of what truly exists. it’s kind of an odd ideal i have in mind, and maybe it’s familiar with you as well (but probably not) but really, i’ve always thought it so incredible!
it’s always lovely to see someone you...
i’ll come around, i promise.
could you, for once in my life, just hear me out this time? i don’t say just anything for no particular reason, you should know that of me. i am asking you for something that should have already been taken care of, years ago. eleven years too long. too much time has passed, too many broken promises. maybe you know, maybe you don’t, but i am scared. there are times that i can’t...
i’m positive there’s a reason for feeling this. but for now, honestly, i feel like crying. :( i’m losing it, i really am.
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why'd you have to be so cute
it’s impossible to ignore you
more new acquaintances! makes up for my day.
although i am in disbelief of how selfish some people can be :( tsk
chin up, cheer up
minimal sleep and late hours really seem to catch up to you. if i’ve been feeling tired and uninspired it is probably because i am—but truly, i am giving my honest effort to show you otherwise.
i had a good day! i realize i am happiest when i am basking in life’s simple pleasures. woke up relatively early this morning, around seven maybe, since i am not a sleeper. my mom took me everywhere, bought a few christmas presents and a few other items along the way for myself, naturally. i purchased a new dress, some earrings and this beret i was totally fawning over. it’s pretty...
i feel that these “better things” are drawing closer, and if not that, they’re becoming something of a tangible reality… and that’s really all the consolance in the world i could imagine. it’ll take the little steps to get there, but i’m more than willing this time around. too many times i’ve let my prospects slip past my grasp, let them bypass me...
hibernating like a bear?
sounds good to me!
plus, first one awake, my day is made. mmm simple pleasures.
lately, it feels like the world’s been a maelstrom of events around me, when really, all i want to do is rest my head and revel (gladly) in the season. i’m more than ready for blankets and fireplaces and hot chocolate and christmas songs… and the prospect of snow? under my facade of skepticism—at least in this regard—i am secretly hopeful (childishly-so). ready when...
“let’s go said he
not too far said she
what’s too far said he
where you are...”
– e.e cummings
seek its weight in gold
some days i feel that i live my life in the middle of a dream. don’t you feel it? i am torn between a reality that i am easing myself into and a world i am all too immersed in. when i seem to let these lines blur, i’ll never admit it entirely, but i might be just a bit lost.
and in the middle of sailing seas, i think i have found my harmony. if only i had the heart to harbor such a feat and keep it close, closer. if only it were that simple.